Im going home soon ^^... well not to stay yet but to visit. I have 50 more hours that I was going to have done by the end of the two weeks but low and behold we're on break for them. It would figure. But hell I AM GOING TO GET DONE BEFORE THIS MONTH IS OVER and i dont care if it kills me in the process. I want to get home to my friends and family and to I miss her so much and it is driving me nuts being gone from her as long as I have. I'm afraid I am going to get back and she isnt going to want me any more I dont think that it will happen but I cant help to think when I'm in the apartment by myself, like now, and knowing how much this distance has changed both of us. Gah, i have to stop depressing over things that are not going to happen.

So i got challanged to a truthful fears journal that lists 72 fears that most people have. the ones marked with Xs are mine things in bubbles (like this) are me explaining things if I feel the need to. SO here I go...

[x] the dark (it has to be dark, small, and quiet though otherwise it doesn't bother me)
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent And, accidently getting pregrant and ur mom and bf not letting you get an abortion.
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others.
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces (again only when its both dark and quiet)
[x] heights (this is more of a half x but I figured I would check it anyway)
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure (not so much failure as disapointing others)
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places (yes but i will do it anyway ^^)
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed (I have nothing to get so Im not really all that worried about this)
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities (again its my hating to disappoint others thing that makes me fear this)
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes (Yes and no, Im more afriad of people I love getting hurt in them)
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind (...)
[ ] becoming deaf
[x] growing up
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals (which makes this one suck even more because I have no idea what my dreams/goals are. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I thought I did but now Im not sure.
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secret

Now I tag WritersBlade, , and anyone else that watches me that wants to

Until next time guys.